Who Else Gets Confused By Spiritual Gifts? | The Truth About God Given Gifts

Once upon a time I was drawn like a moth to a flame when it came to spiritual gift assessments. I wanted so badly to understand my God given gifts and what they meant for my life. It took years of learning and letting go of some selfish ambition to understand that God offers our souls big freedom when we let go of the list and grab onto His purpose.

God given gifts
Trying to understand my God given gifts left me confused. I did lots of things and had lots of skills–but what was my gift? What job did God have for me to do?

Answering the Question: What Do You Do?

I spent a lot of time during my early Christian walk stressing about spiritual gifts. I’d eagerly take the spiritual gift tests. Anxiously read the descriptions in the inventory–hoping I’d fit in somewhere.

But often the test came back inconclusive. I’d measure equally for multiple gifts and nothing really stood out.

This mirrored real life where I had lots of interests and talent, but no one clear direction. Much of my life (both adolescent and adult) was spent searching for what I should b doing. What was my calling? What career should I pursue? Why didn’t any of my God given gifts bring in an income? How would I ever have a respectable answer to my least favorite question, “What do you do?”

I’m a mixed bag of tricks. Comfortable in the throws of a remodel. Speak contractor lingo fluently. Happy in the church kitchen. Loves dinner parties and formal holiday gatherings. Fearless of public speaking. Chronically curious. Fast learner. Skill gatherer. It’s all very mixed up and incongruous. Where did that leave me? Where would I ever fit? What gift label applied to me?

The time spent grappling to understand the gifts God had given me felt like wandering around in the dark. Why did it seem like everyone else had a path that fit them? Instead of walking in freedom, I a slave to comparison. Comparing my walk to others’. Comparing my (nonexistent) income to others’. I was sure that God had given me gifts, but I didn’t see them.

If I was good at so many things, why didn’t any of it amount to success? Why didn’t I have a “real job?” Or a “real” paycheck?

Maybe one or two of you can relate.

Clarity on God Given Gifts

Years later, I was honest with God about this struggle to find worth in career and my confusion about my God given gifts. He provided clarity to me. This week when reading from Exodus for the 90 Day Bible Reading Challenge intersected with a study of Ephesians I remembered my years of turmoil over God given gifts.

Spiritual Gifts in Ephesians

In Ephesians Paul lists out several “spiritual gifts” given to the Church. (This is one of the passages often quoted during my spiritual gift test exercises.)

And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers…

Ephesians 4:11

I looked at the list. Options of gifts that I might have. (Also in 1 Cor 12, Rom 12.) Wondering which ones I was given. Thinking if only I could figure out my gifts, I’d be more fit to serve, more capable of finding a “real job,” more content in my own life.

The Purpose of Our God Given Gifts

But the freeing truth God showed me isn’t in the list. Let’s look at the complete sentence from Ephesians 4. (Emphasis mine.)

And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers, for the equipping of the saints for the work of service, to the building up of the body of Christ; until we all attain to the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to a mature man, to the measure of the stature which belongs to the fullness of Christ. 

Ephesians 4:11-13

What my selfish heart overlooked during those early years of searching for purpose was right there all along. It’s not about the list. It’s about the purpose.

The purpose of our God given gifts is equipping other believers for their service. Building (both encouraging and expanding) the Church. And–Our gifts are to be employed until we all attain unity of faith, knowledge of Jesus and the “body of Christ” grows into a mature man.

We are free to use our gifts in any way they manifest, as long as serve this purpose. God doesn’t require our gifts to gain fame, define our career or even pay the bills. Changing our mindset makes us free to live and serve joyfully–instead of feeling like a failure because our gifts don’t fit or aren’t in the career aptitude test.

Gifts in Exodus

Exodus lists lots of other specific gifts given to craftsmen while they are building the tabernacle. Perfumers, those who work with gold, weavers, builders…The jobs listed are extensive, but Scripture is clear that all of these gifts are given from God. (Emphasis mine.)

Moses continued, “So Bezalel and Oholiab will do the work as the Lord has commanded. They will do this with the help of every other craftsman to whom the Lord has given the necessary skills and talents. They will know how to do all the work for constructing the holy place.”

Moses called Bezalel and Oholiab and every other craftsman to whom the Lord had given these skills and who was willing to come and do the work.

Exodus 36:1-2

Hope in Our Spiritual and God Given Gifts

I was hoping to be put in a box, given a label–all so I could serve my own interests. I wanted to put my gifts to use for myself. But really–God’s purpose for our gifts (whatever they may be) is to serve others and build His body up.

I thought I needed to find a gift that fit from a list on a test. But really–all our interests, natural inclinations and abilities are from God, to be used for His glory.

Don’t be frustrated because you don’t do it all or wish you were like someone else. The unique makeup of YOU is evidence that you were designed intentionally by an intelligent God.

Don’t be fooled by the lie that God is hiding your purpose. Making His will difficult to find and easy to overlook. I thought to “find God’s will for me,” meant knowing my gifts and exactly how to employ them in a career.

Gifts can look many different ways. A gift can manifest in the ability to preach before a congregation or weave beautiful tapestries. No matter what the gift is, the purpose is more important than the gift itself.

Friends, you are gifted. But we are called to turn those gifts outward. Remove the stress and burden of figuring out how to use your gifts to further yourself–instead, employ them the way God intended. To equip others for work and build the church until we attain unity of faith and the body of Christ grows into a mature man. When you reshape your mindset, you will find that your heart has room to breathe and you feel more free to use your giftings to their fullest.

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Minot Monday | Splash Pads in Minot

Minot Monday is made possible through a partnership with BeLOCAL Minot. Today I’m sharing about the two splash pads in Minot. For more on our parks see BeLOCAL’s listings here or my recommendations for great walks in Minot, here.

Summer means splash pad season. And yes, it does get warm enough here to enjoy a splash pad. It’s not always winter, you know. Anyway. There are two great splash pads in Minot. We enjoy them both–and they are both always nice and clean. Today, for Minot Monday I’ll be giving you a little comparison between the two. As a mom this kind of information is helpful to me–and I hope it’s helpful to you too.

Oak Park Splash Pad

Most people know about the Oak Park Splash Pad. There’s a good reason for that. It’s pretty awesome. This splash pad features some big water features. It’s got the classic “mushroom” with water flowing over the top. Some big fountains that squirt up from the ground. And overall, it’s very wet and fun.

Because the water features are mostly large, this is a great splash pad for older kids. (But my 2 year old also enjoys it!) Since it’s well known and centrally located, this splash pad can get pretty busy, and is consistently busy through the summer. However, even on crowded days, I have found that there is enough space, that kids are kind, and parents are watchful. Overall, we’ve never had a negative experience.

As a parent, don’t expect to be able to help a little one through the fountains without getting pretty soaked yourself!

Perks of going to Oak Park.

  • Lots of water
  • A picnic shelter close by
  • Lots of benches for parents
  • A large playground (several playgrounds) nearby
  • Walking and biking trails in the park for additional fun
  • Restrooms attached to the splash pad

Radio City Splash Pad

Radio City Park is somewhat hidden away in a neighborhood on the south side of town. Of the two splash pads in Minot, Radio City is tamer and geared toward smaller children or kids who may be timid around water. The water features are smaller and release less water.

This has been our favorite splash pad since we moved back to Minot last summer. Like I said, the features are smaller and gentler, perfect for a toddler splasher. Also, it’s generally less crowded and the water features are a little more spread out, so it feels more spacious. There aren’t as many benches nearby, but there is plenty of space for parents to sit on the sidelines and a picnic shelter nearby.

As a parent, I enjoy Radio City’s splash pad because I can “play” in the fountains without getting totally soaked. They are easy to walk around and through while still remaining pretty dry.

Pro Tip: A friend recently told me this is her favorite pre-bedtime activity for her preschooler because it typically clears out around 5pm!

Perks of going to Radio City

  • Tamer water features, perfect for younger kids
  • Typically less crowded
  • Playgrounds nearby–one especially good for young kids
  • Few trees around the splash pad, so it’s very sunny
  • Picnic shelter near by
  • Restroom attached to the splash pad

Enjoy the Splash Pads in Minot

Check out both splash pads in Minot and pick your favorite. No matter which one you like best, the splash pads here are a great way to cool off and let littles run off their summer energy. For more on Minot Parks, visit the parks website or check out these recommendations from BeLCOAL. Happy Monday, everyone!

Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People? | The Ancient Question in Job

why do bad things happen to good people

Today I’m confessing that I dislike reading the book of Job because it makes me very uncomfortable. It brings the ancient question: Why do bad things happen to good people? to the forefront of our minds. And calls for reflection and correction in how we view suffering and walk with those in pain.

This week I read the book of Job. I have a really hard time with Job. Such a hard time that while on the phone with my mom, I told her I’d rather be reading Leviticus.

Now that’s really saying something.

Job isn’t a book I’d just pick up and read for fun. It was on the reading schedule as part of the 90 Day Chronological Bible Reading Challenge that kicked off on Monday. If it wasn’t on the schedule, I wouldn’t have read it right now.

Job Makes Me Uncomfortable

Why is Job so hard for me to stomach?

Honestly, it makes me uncomfortable.

The book starts with scenes that leave me with questions. I can’t quite wrap my mind around the set up leading to Job’s troubles. From chapter one of this book I’m already uncomfortable. Wrestling with questions and circumstances I don’t fully understand.

Then, all kinds of calamity strikes Job. Which brings up more questions. Better stated: The Question.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

How can such terrible things come onto someone so honorable? Why isn’t the world just according to the moral code I understand? Where is retribution for those that do evil? Why don’t all kind people prosper?

Why do bad things happen to good people?

The majority of the book of Job records dialogue between Job and his friends as they debate this issue. Job holds fast to his innocence. He strains to hold onto his faith and what he knows to be true about God.

Word Vomit and Meaning Well

His friends seem to mean well. I’m sure the circumstances facing their friend left them uncomfortable and unsure how to help. But they can’t keep their mouths closed or their speculations to themselves. They offer advice on how to regain God’s favor. They imply that Job must have done something to deserve this. Surely there is some wrong that he hasn’t noticed causing this tragedy.

As I read, I spend half the time rolling my eyes, wishing they would just be quiet and listen to their grieving friend. Take time to fully understand what he’s feeling and facing. I spend the other half of the time cringing with conviction because I can relate to the friends’ reaction on a deep level.

How often, when confronted with a friend’s deep hurt, do I offer advice and suggestions about things I have never walked through? How often, when faced with the discomfort of suffering do I end up spewing “word vomit?” Looking the pain of another human in the face has a way of bringing out the “fixer” in me. Maybe it has the same affect on you. I want things to be better. I want to fix the problem. To ease the pain, to comfort, to make the trauma go away.

Instead of trying to fix, speculating, and problem-solving–often a better reaction is listening, asking gentle questions, and turning to Truth to understand God’s character. Easy said, but boy, it’s hard.

Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People? It’s an Ancient Question.

The suffering brings out questions. Questions that make us squirm for closure. Closure that may never come on this side of eternity.

We’re reading the Bible chronologically for this challenge. In our plan, Job fits in around Genesis 11. This means that the book of Job is very ancient indeed. Likewise the question, “Why do bad things happen to good people?” And the human desire to equate noble deeds with prosperity and wicked deeds with retribution are extremely ancient.

While studying Job I learned that many texts exist from civilizations in the ancient Near East (like Mesopotamia and Egypt) exploring this concept. In literary pieces similar to Job, bad things come into the life of a good person. Then the text wrestles with big questions. What’s the cause? Why has he lost favor with the gods? What can be done to restore his prosperity?

Humans have long wanted to place God inside our understanding of moral law. We want Him to be just according to our standards. But He is too big and too far-seeing to fit there. His justice is pure, but it doesn’t always look like we want it to. His mercy is so vast we can’t comprehend it.

Friends, our human desire to understand why bad things happen without cause, is ancient and inborn. It’s a question that has been on lips for millennia. It’s been making us squirm, prodding us to speak too quickly, listen too shallowly, and come to the wrong conclusions about God’s character for longer than we can imagine.

Job Causes Me To Examine My Reaction and Heart Toward Suffering

This, is at the heart of why I have such a hard time with Job. The book causes me to stare into the eyes of a question that has very little closure. A question I am humanly programmed to ponder. A question I desperately want a simple answer for.

Humanity will (I will) continue to wonder, ponder and speculate. Why do bad things happen to good people?

The answer may never be more exact than, “We live in a fallen world. God will set it all right again one day.” It takes faith, trust and a relationship with God to take that answer and continue to move forward. To trust that He sees farther than me (see Job 38:2223) and is just.

The book also forces me to look into a mirror and examine my reaction to other’s suffering. Do I speak Truth rooted in God’s word, on a foundation of love? Do I speak quickly because the pain and the “unanswerable question” leave me uncomfortable? Am I quietly listening and allowing grief to happen? Am I walking beside my brothers and sisters in a way that is “…worthy of the calling to which I was called…” (Eph 4:1-3)

What We DO Know

Job teaches us that hardship does not directly correlate with wrongdoing. It teaches us that God is patient with our mourning, grief and questions. He does not turn a blind eye to our pain. He does not depend on our righteous acts to appease Him into offering blessings. (See Matt 7:11)

While we might not have the answer, Scripture gives us plenty of insight about walking with each other. The instructions give us action steps (but none of those steps happen to be “speak really quickly about things you haven’t walked through…”) Here are just a few examples.

  • Pursue things that lead to peace and building up each other. Rom 14:19
  • Be forgiving. Col 3:13
  • Bear with one another. Diligently seek unity. Eph 4:2-3
  • Abhor evil. Rom 12:9
  • Don’t be too proud to walk with someone you perceive as “lower than you.” Rom 12:16
  • Do not be defeated by evil, but overcome evil with good. Rom 12:21
  • Use words to build one another up. Eph 4:29
  • Hold each other accountable. Help the weak. Be patient with all. 1 Thess 5:14
  • Admit wrongdoing to each other, pray for one another. Jas 5:16

Moving Forward From Job

I know many of us are wrestling with tough questions right now (and not only because we’ve read through Job.) We may not have the closure we desire, but we do serve a God who is bigger than our understanding. We do serve a God who allows us to be stewards of his grace, to show His ways to the world, to tell others that there is hope beyond unanswerable questions and the senseless grief of this world. He is a God who allows us to be part of His action.

As we face a hurting world, let’s remember to listen a little better. Not “reason away” bad circumstances. Let’s be proactive with the gifts God has given each one of us to create unity in the Body, care for the weak, and expand the Kingdom of Christ on earth.

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God’s Boundaries For Us | Toeing the Line

I’m so glad you’re here. Today I’m sharing an “everyday devotional.” An anecdote from life, seen through a Christ’s-Kingdom lens. Grab your coffee (or beverage of choice) and join me as we explore God’s boundaries for us…as inspired by a defiant toddler attending church service.

Returning to “Regular” Church

Recently our church reopened for in-person services. There have been lots of changes and precautions implemented.

Of all the changes that our church has put in place, our family is most affected by the temporary closure of children’s church. Gideon, who used to play happily with his friends during the service is now sitting in church with us. Mind you–I’m using the term “sitting” very loosely.

Our church family has extended lots of grace to families with little ones. No one is cranky or exasperated with restless kids. We’re all just happy to be together again.

Toddler Boundaries

But here’s the thing.

After about 30 minutes Gideon becomes restless. His little body just can’t be still for the entire length of the service. I understand.

Our family sits in chairs against the back wall of the sanctuary. There is a large gap between our seats and the last pew. We do this strategically so Gideon can have space to move around when he gets wiggly.

It’s a big area for a little guy. But it’s still not enough. He is old enough to understand simple boundaries we set for him. In the sanctuary, I tell him he can go anywhere on the blue carpet (basically, anywhere in the sanctuary.) No climbing the stairs, no crossing the threshold to the lobby. Lots of his favorite people are in the room with us. They’d love a walk by visit from Gideon.

I know he understands. But it’s still not enough.

Toeing the Line

Even though he has plenty of space to walk around, he heads directly for the threshold of the sanctuary, where a black strip separates blue carpet from gray. He literally puts his toes on the line, squats down and looks back at me with a gleam in his eye. (Please tell me someone else can relate to this.)

He knows the boundary, but he can’t resist pushing it. I call him back. Or carry him back. Next he may go to the base of the stairs. He’ll climb the first stair and give me “the look.” All this repeats over and over.

Considering God’s Boundaries and Will For Us

As I continued to repeatedly retrieve him from the edges of our boundaries it occurred to me: this is something I do with God. This is something humanity has always done. The safety of God’s will is a wide, wonderful place. Lots of our favorite people are here. There is plenty to do. Plenty of space to wander and explore.

But often we still behave as if it’s not enough.

We can be fooled into thinking that God’s will is a narrow and dull corridor. That it is specific to the point of being confusing or hard to find.

This isn’t true.

The Bible has lots to say about God’s will. Instead of a dark, confining closet, the Word shows us that God’s will and boundaries are more like a vast land preserve. Plenty of space, lots to see and do. Just stay inside the protected land–the boundary is there for our benefit. (John 6:40 is one of my favorite examples of what the Bible specifically says about God’s will. Here is a list of verses pertaining to God’s will.)

Kind of like…Go anywhere on the blue carpet.

But how often do we (do I) immediately head for the black line separating blue from gray and look back at God with a gleam in my eye. Surely this is okay. Surely putting my toes across the line is okay. What about one step into the gray?

Loud is the lie that God’s boundaries are restrictive, stealing our freedom. The truth is, God’s boundaries give us real freedom. Freedom to live in intimacy with our Creator. Freedom to focus on what matters. Staying within God’s will means we have freedom from the bonds of sin and death. We are free to truly live. (More on the freedom God gives us here.)

God’s Grace When We Cross the Line

Let’s not forget about God’s goodness and grace toward us when we push the boundary or cross the line. (Here are more verses about asking God for help.)

For the LORD your God is gracious and compassionate, and will not turn His face away from you if you return to Him.

2 Chron 30:9b

How many times does God lovingly retrieve me? How many times does He remind me of the boundaries of His will? Even more, how much time has He spent holding my hand, helping me resist the temptation to cross the line?

Just as I continue to remind Gideon that he has plenty of space, God has reminded me over and over that His will is the right place. In the same way that I explain that our boundaries keep Gideon safe, God tells us the boundaries of His will are designed to keep us safe too.

Inevitably, Gideon crosses the line. He leaves the sanctuary and heads to the gray-carpeted lobby. Sometimes it’s only a step and a mischievous look. Sometimes it’s a full sprint through the lobby, headed straight for the open door to the parking lot. Or the stairs to the lower level.

I go after Him every time.

God does the same for us. When we cross the line, He is faithful to call us back. Even when we wander far, He is faithful to take our willing hand and lead us back inside His will.

Trusting God’s Boundaries

God's boundaries for us
Loud is the lie that God’s boundaries for us steal our freedom. With time and spiritual maturity, we will begin to trust God to set our limits.

Really, it boils down to trust. Don’t you think? Gideon needs to learn to trust us to set boundaries for him. We need to trust God to set boundaries for us. Ideally someday Gideon will understand that Derek and I see a little farther, know a little more, and want him to thrive.

As we mature in faith we will grow in our trust for God. Trusting that He sees farther, knows more, and sets boundaries for our good. He wants us to thrive.

Friends, learning to stay close to God and trust Him to set our boundaries takes discipline. And practice. It may never be a perfect science. But God will always be faithful to help us resist the temptation to cross the line. Or help us back once we’ve crossed.

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Take A Road Trip From Minot to Rapid City | Minot Monday

Today’s Minot Monday post–all about a road trip from Minot to Rapid City–is made possible through a partnership with BeLOCAL Minot. BeLOCAL is a guide to living like a local and loving our town. For more getaway ideas see here.

Road Trip from Minot to Rapid City
In Custer State Park en route to Little Devil’s Tower

For this edition of Minot Monday we are headed on a road trip! If you live in Minot you simply must put a trip to Rapid City and the Black Hills on your to-see list.

Last week I needed to go down to Rapid City to do some maintenance on our rental property. I thought it would be fun to give you some inside tips for if/when you decide to take a road trip from Minot to Rapid City. Because, let’s be honest. If you are living in Minot you are in the perfect location to explore the Black Hills region over a long weekend. The drive down is a reasonably short. The scenery is beautiful. There are so many things to do you’ll leave wanting to come back. And you’ll head back to Minot refreshed and exhilarated.

If you have recently relocated to North Dakota, take advantage of your new location. Explore what this region of the country has to offer. Previously when we lived in Minot, coming down to the Black Hills was our favorite quick trip. I’m convinced it can be your favorite trip too!

Now–let’s all keep in mind that I am not advising anyone to hop in their cars and take a vacation at this moment. Please use common sense, adhere to the latest CDC guidelines, practice social distancing and most importantly, do what you think is right for you and your family. These ideas can be kept for the future.

Where is Rapid City?

Road Trip from Minot to Rapid City
Main Street Square, Downtown Rapid City

Rapid City and the Black Hills are in western South Dakota. From Minot its about a 6.5 hour drive. Yes, to an outsider that might seem like a long drive. But in North Dakota it’s not too far at all. I typically allow 7 hours for driving and a meal and gas stop.

Tips for a Road Trip From Minot to Rapid City

Road Trip from Minot to Rapid City
Spring Creek Trail

When we road trip from Minot to Rapid City, we prefer this route. Usually we stop at the Powderhorn Restaurant in Lemmon, SD. It’s quirky, basically half way and the food is always good.

If you’ve taken shorter drives in North Dakota, you know that there aren’t many amenities outside of towns. On a longer road trip like this be sure to fuel up before leaving Minot. Then take advantage of gas stations (and food/toilets) along the way. Proper stops are few and far between.

Cell service and data become spotty on the drive. Take a back up map or copy screen shots of your route, just in case signal drops off.

Things to See in Rapid City and The Black Hills

If I listed all the things to do and see in this region, this post could go on forever. Instead I’ll give you some links from the official visitor guides and a list of my favorite things. This is a family friendly area and there are tons of things for all travelers to do.

Hiking

Devil’s Bathtub | Image via Visit Rapid City

No trip would be complete without taking in the Black Hills via hiking. Trails are everywhere and range from easy (I just took a great hike with a three year old) to strenuous multi-day journeys. Below are a few of my favorite places to hike. Here are 10 more great hikes. And here is an abundance of information on Black Hills trails.

Hiking Sheridan Lake

Walks In Town

Attractions in Rapid City

Who’s Toys House

Below are my favorite places to pop into in town. Here is a full list of Rapid City attractions.

Attractions in the Hills

Custer State Park Wildlife Loop

Below are a few of my favorites. Here is a link to all Black Hills attractions.

My Favorite Things to Eat in Rapid City and the Black Hills

Road Trip from Minot to Rapid City
Mount Rushmore

Good food is everywhere. One thing I love about this region is that there is so much to do, your trip won’t be centered around food. But you’ve gotta eat sometime, so you might as well make it good. Here’s a full list of Rapid City eats and Black Hills eats.

In Rapid City

In and Around the Black Hills

Enjoy Your Road Trip From Minot to Rapid City

Walking near Canyon Lake Park

Like I said, if you find yourself living in Minot take advantage of your proximity to this scenic and historic region. If you are living in Minot for only a short time, you may never get a chance to explore this region with such ease. For other road trips remember to check out these ideas from BeLOCAL. Great getaways within an easy drive are just another reason to love life in Minot.

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The Best Summer Ever | Free 90 Day Chronological Bible Reading Plan

Today I’m excited to bring you a free 90 day chronological Bible reading plan. I’ll be kicking off my reading on June 1 and I hope you join me. The free download is at the bottom of this post, or in the Resource Library. I’ve written some things I have learned through doing a 90 day reading plan…and how it has added to my testimony.

Four years ago I accepted a challenge from a friend to embark on a 90 Bible reading adventure. At the time, I was in the fledgling stages of claiming full victory over a lifelong battle with anxiety and depression. I’d recently walked through the darkest days of my life. A time in which my thoughts, emotions and even spirituality were jumbled and flipped.

During those long months of what I can now clearly see was a mental health crisis it took all of my strength and cognition to hang on to the Truth. God is real. Jesus is my Savior. God is a deliverer, not my enemy. If you have grappled with depression and anxiety, you know things can seem very mixed up. The temptation to believe lies is more real than you may ever have imagined.

I Thought The Timing Was All Wrong.

Anyway, in the early summer of 2016 I had completed counseling which took me to the root causes of much of my anxiety and depression. I was healing, but the wounds were still a little raw.

Mentally, I was exhausted from learning to live out new healthy patterns of thought. Emotionally, I was drained because Derek and I were moving and there were many uncertainties. He had already left to train for his next job, I was alone–finalizing the sale of our house and packing. Physically, I was just dog-tired.

When the challenge came to join in a 90 day read through of the Bible I had several initial thoughts. I’m too tired for that. The timing isn’t right to take this on. I struggle with a year-long Bible reading plan–how could I do it in three months? I’ll try again some other time.

But the challenge nagged at me. Deep in my heart I could hear God telling me this was exactly the right time. I could feel the Holy Spirit assuring me that this would not be a burden, that His Word would be a salve to my wounds. This would propel me forward if I would let it.

Why I Love The 90 Day Chronological Bible Reading Plan

So, with much hesitation I started.

Friends, it really did change me. It did all those things my heart could hear, and so much more.

Because I chose to read in chronological order, I saw Scripture as a cohesive, narritive–from beginning to end. (Well–the end of the book. Revelation isn’t really “the end,” is it?)

Because the time frame was short, I gained an overall understanding of the “Bigger Story” told in the Bible. By reading in 90 days, I was able to see how the entirety of Scripture works together.

Because it was a fairly short commitment, I was more inclined to stay on top of it.

I’ve read the Bible in 90 days several times now. Every time is sweet and always worth the effort and challenge.

How Did I Really Read the Bible in 90 Days?

If you are hesitant, like I was–let me encourage you. This is how it looked for me.

First of all, it took me about 100 days instead of 90. Extend yourself grace. Don’t get discouraged.

Second, I’ve used a variety of techniques. I’ve done a complete audio “read-through.” I’ve done a combination of reading and listening. And I’ve done only reading. I prefer a combination of the two. For me, listening is best. I focus better and have better recall.

Third, I don’t always do all the reading at once. Depending on the day I may have 3-4 short reading sessions to tackle the day’s text–instead of one long session.

It This Really Doable?

Yes. It seems more implausible than it really is. Once you start you’ll see that this is a doable goal.

Audio Bibles are a great way to get the reading in, even if you aren’t able to sit and read. (There are lots of good options at BibleGateway)

I’m a terribly slow reader. To tackle the 90 day chronological Bible reading plan I need to split the texts up if I’m reading. Cumulatively it takes me 45 minutes to 1 hour to complete. (Also because I lose my train of thought when I read.) If I listen, it takes about 20-30 minutes. I’ll typically listen to the texts multiple times in one day. It’s more doable than you think.

All in all, it’s a small time commitment. Carve out the time for something this vital. Your heart will change. Your understanding of who God really is will be enhanced.

This is Your Right Time

Maybe you’re like me. Hesitant. Sure there will be a better time. Whatever hard times you’ve seen lately–maybe this is your right time. Your perfect moment to say “Yes” to something that truly matters, truly heals and brings true clarity and knowledge.

Just try.

I can’t promise you a list of benefits. But I can tell you from experience: time spent challenging myself to know God more deeply has never been wasted. Every time I push into to discover more about God’s character–I come out with joy more tangible, feet more planted and assured, fear a little farther away. Maybe this is your perfect moment to say “Yes.”

Here’s the Plan

It’s May 20. I’m kicking off my next “90 day chronological Bible reading plan” challenge on June 1. That gives you ten days to pray, prepare your heart and decide if you’d like to commit. I’d love to have you reading alongside me. To make it easier, I’ve got a downloadable Chronological 90 Day Bible Reading Plan–FREE, just for you.

There are lots of plans floating around. But this is the one I’ll be using…and it’s pretty. And doesn’t it feel better to take on a challenge with something pretty taped to the fridge? You can get the plan below. Or in the Resource Library.

I’ll be talking about the daily reads (or listens) on Instagram and in Instagram stories–I’d love to have you join me! I hope to be reading alongside you on June 1!

Minot Monday | Roosevelt Park Zoo in Minot

As Minot steps into summer I’ll be sharing some of my favorite warm weather activities with you. Today, I’m talking about the Roosevelt Park Zoo in Minot. Much of this information can be found at the zoo’s website. I’ve compiled it here alongside my personal experience. A big thanks to BeLOCAL Minot for partnering with me to make Minot Mondays possible.

Summer in Practically Canada

Summer brings out a whole new set of funtivities in Practically Canada (AKA, Minot.) We start to come out of our winter cocoons of dinners in, church potlucks and game nights. Instead we venture out into the endless daylight to enjoy parks and ice cream and gardens and hikes.

The Roosevelt Park Zoo in Minot is a great small town zoo. It’s a great zoo for our community and a wonderful resource for a city the size of Minot. It’s a perfect place to take a walk and enjoy the perfect North Dakota summer weather. Don’t fall into the trap of negativity by comparing it to a zoo in a bigger city like Omaha, Colorado Springs or Dallas. Those zoos are great–but Minot isn’t a metropolis. We are blessed to have a zoo in town to enjoy!

One of the things I appreciate most at the Roosevelt Park Zoo is that they are constantly improving (at least since I first moved to Minot in 2012.) The community has rallied around this resource to raise money to improve dated habitats and offer lots of valuable community education (for adults and littles) all year long.

I always like the zoo. But now that I have a little who loves animals, I’ve realize just how special it is to have a zoo right here in our back yard.

What’s a Day at the Zoo Like?

Image via RPZoo Facebook

Zoo staff is working hard to keep things clean and safe during the COVID-19 era. Facilities are clean and things are regularly wiped down. There are hand sanitizer stations available near the petting zoo. (The “petting” portion was closed during our visit.)

You can bring snacks into the park. But staff asks that you do not bring disposable straws and lids inside. (I just learned that naughty squirrels like to dig them out of the trash and place them in animal enclosures.) There are benches throughout the park and a few tables near the concession building, but no “official” picnic shelters–so just keep that in mind when you pack up to come.

Pro Tip: Keepers and staff told me that many animals are fed and enclosures cleaned shortly after opening. This is a prime time to see animals active and interacting with staff (and to ask staff questions.) Gideon and I arrived at 10:30–which gave a good opportunity to see lots of morning activity.

Strollers and wagons are welcome in the park. You can also rent a wagon at the gate.

On our inaugural trip we spent about two hours exploring and watching the animals. This allowed us to walk the whole zoo and revisit our favorite exhibits again before leaving.

For a list of things that may be closed or limited access see here.

What Kind of Animals Are There At Roosevelt Park Zoo in Minot?

Image via RPZoo Facebook

This summer Roosevelt Park Zoo in Minot is celebrating 100 years since it first opened! It’s grown since 1920 and is now home to more than 200 animals.

Here is information about animals at the zoo.

New big-cat habitats are under construction. A new lion habitat recently opened. As I said earlier, the zoo is working hard to continue offering an excellent experience into its next century.

Gideon and I love seeing the giraffes and primates. Those were animals he was excited to revisit.

Tell Me About Admission. Is a Membership Worth It?

Full admission prices are here. However, I’ll give you my personal opinion on this:

If you are a mom of a little who likes animals, you should become a zoo member. Admission is totally reasonable ($9.50/adult during the summer, $5.50/adult in winter.) Kids have lower admission and kids under 3 are FREE!

An annual zoo membership is $45 for an individual or $75 for a family (other membership options with additional perks are available. See here.)

A little math will tell you, it won’t take long for a membership to pay off. We’ve already used our membership twice and they just opened on May 9!

A membership takes pressure off of needing to spend a “whole day” at the zoo to make admission “worthwhile.” You can come and go as you please and only stay 30 minutes if your kids have a melt down. It’s great and I highly recommend it. Additionally, members get discounts on classes that happen year round–another great investment.

Image via RPZoo Facebook page

What Happens During the “Off Season?”

Glad you asked. The answer is “a lot.” The zoo continues to be open (weather permitting) with limited hours. They also offer classes for all ages throughout the year. I’ve heard AMAZING feedback about the Zoo Tots classes from other moms in town.

Look here for more on year round education.

Where is the Roosevelt Park Zoo in Minot?

The zoo is only a short drive from anywhere in Minot (like most things in Minot.) It’s just east of downtown off of Burdick, as you head to the fairgrounds. The parking lot is at the entrance of Roosevelt Park.

Because the zoo is attached to Roosevelt Park, it’s a perfect place to have a day’s worth of adventure. The park has a nice walking trail, beautiful gardens and a nice playground. Roosevelt Park Pool is also located there and will be opening for the season May 31.

Get Outside

I hope you’ll get outside this week and enjoy the start of a North Dakota summer. More on the zoo and other fun summer activities is here at BeLOCAL. What other places do you love to explore in nice weather? I’d love to hear from you. Comment below or join the positive-vibes community, committed to loving where they live by hanging out with me on Instagram or Facebook. Have a great week!

Being A Child of God | An Everyday Devotional About Hide and Seek

Today I’m talking about being a child of God and the affection He has for us. This is an “everyday devotional.” A mundane moment in my very ordinary life, seen through a Christ-centered lens. I believe when we view our life as anecdotes of God’s grace, we will see His stories all around us. Grab your coffee (or water) and come into my messy, under-construction house (and life.)

We Play A Lot of “Hide” At My House.

For the last few months Gideon (now just over 2) has been really into playing “hide.” It’s adorable. He wants to get under any piece of fabric or pillow in the house. It’s never a good hiding place. Usually I’m the one to cover him up. He’ll tell me he wants to “HI-HEE” while pointing to a blanket. Translation: “Hide, here.”

Once covered, he’ll proclaim from under the blankets, “Ma, yook.” Translation: Mom, pretend to look all over, then find me.

Like I said, it’s adorable. It can also get old. But it’s mostly adorable.

Recently though, he’s wanted Derek or me to hide with him. Sometimes he’ll want the other parent to look and find–sometimes he just wants to be under the blankets and whisper.

Hiding With Gideon

A few days ago I was playing hide with Gideon. We were under the covers on my bed. The sheets with a faded blue stripe were perfectly diffusing the morning light. My arm was propping up the sheet to create a nice tent for us. Perfectly hidden from the outside world, but with plenty of room to play.

He rolled around and crawled to the deepest dark at the foot of the bed. Eventually that wore him out and he became still. He rested his head on my arm (not the tenting arm), played with a toy car and talked quietly to himself. He didn’t want me to move, just to stay there, hiding with him.

It struck me in that moment that I was completely and utterly happy with what was happening. My heart was so full. I could have watched him forever under the soft glow of the sheets. He is completely captivating to me. I love the way his hands look when he holds a toy. How his voice sounds. The way he rolls his eyes when he is thinking hard. The way he smiles with his whole face.

I love that I speak “fluent Giddy.” I can decipher full sentences from his fragmented syllables and hand gestures. Like every mom, my list could go on for a long time, but I’ll stop here.

This bottomless well of affection is something I could never have fully grasped until I became a mom. I liked kids. But I didn’t consider myself a “kid person.” This affinity I have for Gideon is totally different–and foreign to me.

It struck me as we laid there in peace, hiding from the world. I am just so happy when he wants to be with me. It’s an honor to my heart for him to want me near.

I basked in that truth. Me. A girl who never thought she was the marrying type–let alone the momming type–turning to mush under the bed sheets because a two year old wants her. What a humbling, satisfying truth.

Hiding With God | Being A Child of God

But there’s a deeper truth to be seen here. A truth about being a child of God.

As I laid there, I could hear God’s sweet voice speaking to my heart in the stillness.

That feeling that I have toward Gideon. That heart-bursting, stomach-melting love. Those feelings pale in comparison to God’s desire for us. For all ways I know Gideon–God knows us deeper. He can discern our mixed up thoughts and words and fragmented sentences. If I can understand Gideon’s words through tears and tantrum, God can understand our words through the deepest heartache and loudest storm.

For all the ways I celebrate Gideon’s triumphs and the things that he is learning and how he is growing–God rejoices with our victories even more. He roots us on and loves to see us learn and grow.

If I bask in moments of stillness with my child, God craves time with us with a hunger we’ll never understand this side of eternity.

God wants nothing more than for us to invite Him to hide with us. To invite Him into our secret places. To talk, or play, or just be still and be with Him.

If I know how my heart threatens explosion to be near my child, I can only imagine how God–the Creator of all, Author of life, Good Father–feels when we want to spend time with Him. Being a child of God means God loves us fiercely, in the purest, deepest ways. Being a child of God means you are wanted by the One who matters most. You are desired, valued, known.

I’m challenging you today. Invite God to hide with you. Bring Him into a secret space in your heart. Whether you talk, or listen, or just be still is up to you.

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