Once upon a time I was drawn like a moth to a flame when it came to spiritual gift assessments. I wanted so badly to understand my God given gifts and what they meant for my life. It took years of learning and letting go of some selfish ambition to understand that God offers our souls big freedom when we let go of the list and grab onto His purpose.
Answering the Question: What Do You Do?
I spent a lot of time during my early Christian walk stressing about spiritual gifts. I’d eagerly take the spiritual gift tests. Anxiously read the descriptions in the inventory–hoping I’d fit in somewhere.
But often the test came back inconclusive. I’d measure equally for multiple gifts and nothing really stood out.
This mirrored real life where I had lots of interests and talent, but no one clear direction. Much of my life (both adolescent and adult) was spent searching for what I should b doing. What was my calling? What career should I pursue? Why didn’t any of my God given gifts bring in an income? How would I ever have a respectable answer to my least favorite question, “What do you do?”
I’m a mixed bag of tricks. Comfortable in the throws of a remodel. Speak contractor lingo fluently. Happy in the church kitchen. Loves dinner parties and formal holiday gatherings. Fearless of public speaking. Chronically curious. Fast learner. Skill gatherer. It’s all very mixed up and incongruous. Where did that leave me? Where would I ever fit? What gift label applied to me?
The time spent grappling to understand the gifts God had given me felt like wandering around in the dark. Why did it seem like everyone else had a path that fit them? Instead of walking in freedom, I a slave to comparison. Comparing my walk to others’. Comparing my (nonexistent) income to others’. I was sure that God had given me gifts, but I didn’t see them.
If I was good at so many things, why didn’t any of it amount to success? Why didn’t I have a “real job?” Or a “real” paycheck?
Maybe one or two of you can relate.
Clarity on God Given Gifts
Years later, I was honest with God about this struggle to find worth in career and my confusion about my God given gifts. He provided clarity to me. This week when reading from Exodus for the 90 Day Bible Reading Challenge intersected with a study of Ephesians I remembered my years of turmoil over God given gifts.
Spiritual Gifts in Ephesians
In Ephesians Paul lists out several “spiritual gifts” given to the Church. (This is one of the passages often quoted during my spiritual gift test exercises.)
And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers…
Ephesians 4:11
I looked at the list. Options of gifts that I might have. (Also in 1 Cor 12, Rom 12.) Wondering which ones I was given. Thinking if only I could figure out my gifts, I’d be more fit to serve, more capable of finding a “real job,” more content in my own life.
The Purpose of Our God Given Gifts
But the freeing truth God showed me isn’t in the list. Let’s look at the complete sentence from Ephesians 4. (Emphasis mine.)
And He gave some as apostles, and some as prophets, and some as evangelists, and some as pastors and teachers, for the equipping of the saints for the work of service, to the building up of the body of Christ; until we all attain to the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to a mature man, to the measure of the stature which belongs to the fullness of Christ.
Ephesians 4:11-13
What my selfish heart overlooked during those early years of searching for purpose was right there all along. It’s not about the list. It’s about the purpose.
The purpose of our God given gifts is equipping other believers for their service. Building (both encouraging and expanding) the Church. And–Our gifts are to be employed until we all attain unity of faith, knowledge of Jesus and the “body of Christ” grows into a mature man.
We are free to use our gifts in any way they manifest, as long as serve this purpose. God doesn’t require our gifts to gain fame, define our career or even pay the bills. Changing our mindset makes us free to live and serve joyfully–instead of feeling like a failure because our gifts don’t fit or aren’t in the career aptitude test.
Gifts in Exodus
Exodus lists lots of other specific gifts given to craftsmen while they are building the tabernacle. Perfumers, those who work with gold, weavers, builders…The jobs listed are extensive, but Scripture is clear that all of these gifts are given from God. (Emphasis mine.)
Moses continued, “So Bezalel and Oholiab will do the work as the Lord has commanded. They will do this with the help of every other craftsman to whom the Lord has given the necessary skills and talents. They will know how to do all the work for constructing the holy place.”
Moses called Bezalel and Oholiab and every other craftsman to whom the Lord had given these skills and who was willing to come and do the work.
Exodus 36:1-2
Hope in Our Spiritual and God Given Gifts
I was hoping to be put in a box, given a label–all so I could serve my own interests. I wanted to put my gifts to use for myself. But really–God’s purpose for our gifts (whatever they may be) is to serve others and build His body up.
I thought I needed to find a gift that fit from a list on a test. But really–all our interests, natural inclinations and abilities are from God, to be used for His glory.
Don’t be frustrated because you don’t do it all or wish you were like someone else. The unique makeup of YOU is evidence that you were designed intentionally by an intelligent God.
Don’t be fooled by the lie that God is hiding your purpose. Making His will difficult to find and easy to overlook. I thought to “find God’s will for me,” meant knowing my gifts and exactly how to employ them in a career.
Gifts can look many different ways. A gift can manifest in the ability to preach before a congregation or weave beautiful tapestries. No matter what the gift is, the purpose is more important than the gift itself.
Friends, you are gifted. But we are called to turn those gifts outward. Remove the stress and burden of figuring out how to use your gifts to further yourself–instead, employ them the way God intended. To equip others for work and build the church until we attain unity of faith and the body of Christ grows into a mature man. When you reshape your mindset, you will find that your heart has room to breathe and you feel more free to use your giftings to their fullest.
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